Awana phobia

Once upon a time (about ten to fifteen years ago) I played golf at Awana, in which I lost more than 10 balls, gave up half way through and told myself not to ever play in this course again. I visited the course again yesterday and experience similar disaster. I tried to give myself all sort of excuses such as bad weather (heavy rain mid way through the game) and wet soggy grass. A better logical explanation is that I have phobia in this course. Score of 107 is the worst this year thus far, however, am confident that I would not repeat similar performance as long as I don’t visit the same stupid course.